Thanks to the Hallmark Holiday nature of Valentines Day, it is quite impossible to ignore it. But worst of all is when in my life, this day has turned to a day of nightmare and only part of it is due to the actual nature of Valentines Day.
What follows is a recount of some of the very darkest days of my life. If you fear for the darkness, turn now, before its too late. Year by year I break it down:
2006: This year I started to go insane mentally and went down a dark road that would lead to me attempting suicide a month later. As I was in a very dark place, I do not remember much else that happened this day.
2007: This year I was rejected rather harshly by a woman that I had cared about very much at the time. I also lost many friends over this indecent. This was probably one of the better Valentines Days for me.
2008: This year a lone gunman walked into a lecture hall at the school I would soon attend and killed four people. A few of my friends were in that lecture hall. A few years later, (2011) bullies would use the fact that like the attacker, I had autism to abuse me physiologically over the internet.
2009: A close friend of mine who had been trapped in an incredibly abusive relationship committed suicide. I bear the burden of my failure to save her to this very day.
2010: I was ridiculed by my friends for the lack of a date. I kept to myself and got incredibly sick (I had some advanced form of the flu). This was probably one of the better Valentines Days for me.
2011: This year I was the victim of massive cyber bully attacks. I became paranoid, irrational, and did not trust anyone. i managed to push my family and friends away and became the easiest victim possible for my assailants. The entire college I attended was convinced I was a rapist and stalker. I got assaulted on the street and the police did not help me.
2012: This year I was without a job and incurring massive debt. I spent the whole day alone. Keeping to myself and eating away at my own emotional stability. This was probably one of the better Valentines Days for me.
2013: This year I had no car thanks a to massive accident I was involved in. I was stranded and miserable. My phone and computer also broke. At the exact same time I almost managed to push my dad away to the point where would have never spoken again.
2014: This year I worked a job bringing food to people. i got stiffed the entire day, and my car ended up breaking in the middle of the day
2015: This year I worked a miserable retail job with a few co workers who had it out for me. Customers who were rotten to the core, including on who was determined to steal a ton of merchandise from the store did not help.
2016: And this year looked like it would be great. I was going to see Deadpool with a friend. This was stopped by my Bank. They stopped my debit card, locked my account and as President's Day follows, I am locked out of all my money until 2 days after. Also my car is on its last leg and my tires are beginning to go flat.
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