Life Parallels With Illidan Stormrage

As many gamers grow up, they find that one video game character that they realize is basically a more fantastic version of themselves.  For me, that character was and is Illidan Stormrage.

You are not prepared for me to drop this joke so I'll just get that out of the way.  Ok, now lets continue.

I have always seen a multitude of parallels to Illidan.  I have always known that I was destined for greatness.  i have always had a dark side that I barely keep in check.  I have a fascination with darkness as well as an obsession with using the powers of evil against itself.

But the parallels go much deeper than that.  Like Illidan, I have watched the women I loved choose vastly inferior men to myself.  And then told that what I see as so great about myself is nothing more than a fatal flaw.  Like Illidan, I made the mistake of listening to people who have less of a grasp on reality than I do when looking for advice.

Also like Illidan, I tend to get punished whenever I do what needs to be done.  I may save the day, but in the end, I'm the villain.  Don't mind the fact if not for my actions, you might not be able to judge me in the first place.

Also like Illidan, I have been back-stabbed by just about everyone I have ever trusted.  the more I trusted them, the deeper the knife was twisted.  even worse, these former friends love the idea of projection.  They accuse me of being a traitor while twisting the knife. 

Hatred as I have already explained at length is a powerful emotion, only competing with love and fear as far as the most potent of emotions.  Like Illidan, I embraced the inner darkness, which of course managed to alienate most of my friends.  Of course I realized at that point that the people I pushed away were never my friends anyway.  Just dogs looking for the scraps I dropped.  I am better off without them.

I am sure that as you read this, you think I fancy myself a egotist.  That I see myself above all others.  And while I may come off that way, and have justifiable reasons for thinking I am better than most people, at the end of the day, I am just a person who has the capacity to change the world.  The world just is not prepared for it.