This summer I began taking online course again to make up or a more than 2 year lapse in my education. Still one class is an insignificant part of my life and does not warrant an explanation. What does however matter is that I will be attending school full time this fall.
I am trying to go into this renewed experience with optimism. The pain of the last three years that I had spent at college are now behind me. The old weak me that allowed himself to be Cyber bullied into the ground and allowed pathetic excuse for human beings to trick him into following their rules and advice is long dead. He has been replaced by the jaded cynic you all know today.
Still this new me is ready to return to the classroom. I am now mature enough that the social drama of a failing Greek System is the least of my concerns. While student organizations will still be on my mind, the piece of paper that will allow me to gather other pieces of paper will be foremost as my goal.
Instead, my greatest fear now is whether college is worth it. The way the debt (both mine and general student) has increased over the years, I would need to be making roughly $90,000 a year starting out to make it out ahead. Will it be worth it after all the pain and misery I experienced in my younger years combined with an entire decade of my life that has been largely wasted at tasks far beneath me along side a love life that could be the punchline of a comedy skit?
My fear is not at all. My greatest fear of all is that I will continue to live a squandered life because we live in a society ruled by people that go out of their way to ensure people like me with new ideas fail.
Well, look at it this way. You have 4 options: 1. You get the degree, land a good job in your field, and are able to pay off your student debt and live comfortably. 2. You get the degree, can't land a good job, but have that "break-out idea" that earns you enough to pay off your student debt and at the very, very least leaves you able to sustain yourself. 3. You give up school, end up working menial jobs for the rest of your life, and wind up poor for the rest of your days. 4. You earn your degree, can't land a job that earns enough to pay off your student debt, and none of your ideas take off. I'd rather bet on a 50/50 than a 1 in 4. In truth, it's actually more likely than not much, much, better than a 50/50, because I'd very highly doubt that number 4 would ever happen, and I know you better than to know number 3 would. Do your best in school, and maximize your potential for a good outcome!
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